Depok, 6 Maret 2006

Made a meal and threw it up on Sunday I've
Gotta lot of things to learn
Said I would and I'll be leaving one day
Before my heart starts to burn ....


SEnin pagi!
SEmangat! Aku tau ada hal-hal bagus yang akan terjadi hari ini.
Aku juga tau apa yang harus aku kerjakan hari ini.
Kerja n kuliah di SAlemba.
Bakal capek tapi aku sedang nggak pengen mengeluhkan itu.
Jadi, senyum!
Pagi ini matahari cerah.

Aku emang lagi nggak gentar ama capek.
Bahkan waktu kemarin ada tawaran side job buat hari sabtu juga aku ayohin.
Walaupun sempat agak2 nyesel juga setelah liat timnya.
Sempat kepikir buat mundur, n nyari2 alasan ngomong (sori, Da! tapi kan nggak jadi).
Cuma aku jadi ingat satu hal, biasanya di balik sesuatu yang menyebalkan bakal ada senyum yang mengembang.
Secara mencurigakan. Somehow, usually with mysterious way.
Cuma, aku juga takut terlalu berharap.

.....So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new...don't you know
The cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
....

Tengah hari.
Terjadi hal bagus yang sudah kuduga. Cengiran jadi tambah lebar, deh!
Cuma, secara logic, atau kalo Greg Behrendt liat dia bakal teriak: he's just not that into you!
Tapi apa hati nggak boleh berharap.
Kalo lepas dari konteks yang aku alami, apa kalo mau berharap mesti liat-liat dulu (gimana itungan di atas kertas, gimana kalo dipikir secara rasio)?
Apa aku mesti lagi-lagi bilang takut berharap?

Belum juga dipikir bener-bener : am I really that into him?

.....
Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find
Behind the door
So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new...don't you know
The cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away


Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows
Yeah, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
......

Hore!!!
Berdasar rapat, masalah dengan side job bukan lagi masalah.
Thanks Allah

....
If you're leaving will you take me with you
I'm tired of talking on my phone
There is one thing I can never give you
My heart will never be your home
.....

Sorenya.
Kutinggalkan komputerku & menuju ruang Sekdep.
Ada sosialisasi dikit.
Setengah jam kemudian aku terburu-buru keluar. Sholat.
Segera ke stasiun, memburu kereta ke Cikini.

Di luar hujan gerimis.
(nggak lengkap hari bagus tanpa gerimis...)
Mulai gemetar, lapar nih.
Kereta terlambat.
Yah, jangan-jangan sampe di sana makanan udah habis.

...
So what's the matter with you?
Sing me something new...don't you know
The cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
......

Gema Azan menyambut kita, saat memasuki kompleks UI Salemba.
Alhamdulillaah.. masih ada makanan.
Doa penutup buka puasaku:
"Ya Allaah, tunjukkan sampai setinggi apa hamba boleh berangan..."

......
Don't you know
The cold and wind and rain don't know
They only seem to come and go away
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows the way it's gonna be
Stand by me, nobody knows
Yeah, nobody knows the way it's gonna be

Stand by Me-Oasis